Shots

Today my princess had to get her 2 month shots. It was a not a happy day for any of us,we were running on very little sleep and shots are pretty much awful. We went to the appointment,at 8 in the morning btw,and princess is now up to 9 lbs 9 oz! She is doing great with everything and they have no concerns. So that was good news. I asked about getting her tested for Celiac and the dr felt it would be best to wait until she’s a little older unless she has symptoms. She got her shots and didn’t scream too much but she was tired and cranky the rest of the day so I took off so that I could keep an eye on her. It was really hard to watch her in pain today and not be able to help her and then to know that she’s running a fever but thats normal after shots..it was a tough day.

2 Months!!

Today my sweet little angel turned 2 months old! I can't believe she is already 2 months,it seems like I was still waddling around 9 months pregnant just the other day. She is already such a huge part of our lives though. I can't remember what our lives were like before her. I don't remember what it's like to go to bed when I want and sleep all night,or to carry a purse instead of a diaper bag. I can't remember getting dressed without making sure I can nurse in that outfit or a time when I wasn't constantly worried about my baby girl. In the last 2 months I have been pooped on,peed on,thrown up on,drooled on,spit up on,scratched,had my hair pulled and had blisters on my boobs from breastfeeding. I wouldn't trade it for the world though. I am the happiest I have ever been. And even though Ben and I have less alone time, I think we are closer than ever. I adore my little family.

More Milk Please!

Tonight I met my sweet baby's other half-the screamer. I have this angelic,calm baby..the kind that every parent hopes for. But tonight she decided to show me that she does indeed have a set of lungs on her. Along with that she decided to let me know that she like her meals served every half hour..needless to say,it's been a long night. I'm worried that I'm no longer producing enough for her to get full. Hopefully it's just because I've been feeling sick the last few days but I'm worried it might be because I started on the patch or maybe I just stopped producing as much :( Kinda freaking out because I don't want to use formula. I guess there isn't much we can do now except to wait and see if it gets better in the next few days.

sexy rocks a Moby

I dont have too much to say today but I will say that I'm blessed to have such an amazing man in my life. My sweet guy let me drag him to 7 stores just to find some shorts-and didn't complain. I finally ended up buying 3 pairs that actually fit and looked good. Today was the first time in quite awhile that I felt sexy and confident and like me again..it was a great day because of that and I owe it all to Ben for bearing with me and telling me how beautiful I am every step of the way. Thank you baby! I love you!!

Post Baby Clothes Shopping

Today was 94°...the past week has been in the high 90's to 100°. So I had to go shopping for some new shorts-not a favorite of mine. I've always been a big girl. The last year of high school I really started packing on the pounds and it kept going until 2 summers after I graduated. I ended up at a size 18 and weighed 190 lbs. That summer I started working outside,running around with kids all day,watching what I ate and walking 3 miles at least twice a week. I dropped 50 lbs by the end of the summer and I was down to a size 11. I did great for a good 2 years, staying between 11-13,then I got pregnant. I stayed at a 13 until I was about 5 months and then I gained 14 lbs and had to start wearing 15's. At about 6 months I switched to maternity jeans to be more comfortable but I was watching my weight and staying where the doctor told me I needed to be. By the end of my pregnancy I had gained 34 lbs and weighed 209 lbs. After Paisley was born I instantly lost 19 lbs and was down to about 190. Now I know that I will drop the weight soon, I just barely got the ok to exercise a week ago and I gained the right weight for my beautiful daughter..But I still feel like I'm back to being the fat girl with the low self esteem and the fear of shopping for clothes. So today was hard for me. I was overly critical of every pair of shorts I tried on and cried alot and ended up leaving every store empty handed. This is going to be a long journey. It took me a long time to finally be comfortable in my body and now that I'm back to where I started out, I just feel like a failure.

the much anticipated return to work

...was actually alot easier than I expected. I am incredibly fortunate to be working for a school and during the summer my boss doesn't mind me having Paisley with me. The first she asked was why she wasn't there! So I had Ben come up and they stayed with me. My mom was at a luncheon for a funeral when Ben was supposed to drop Paisley off on his way to work so I just kept her all day. So nice! So our new schedule is that they come to work with me from 11-2:30 and then Ben takes her to my mom on his way to work and I pick her up at 4. I am loving it so far. But all good things come to an end,and my end is the end of June. The program I work for has a 4 year cycle and after working there for 4 years..it's over. So i have the option of starting at a new school in August or finding a new job. I really wanted to just get a newspaper route so that I could offset the costs of a daycare/babysitter and basically be a SAHM while still making some money. But Ben isn't really a fan of the idea. So my mom told me about a job opportunity at the school we currently work at, I would work full time as an assistant. I would get off of work right as Ben would be going in. Paisley would never have a babysitter but I would be away from her for 7-8 hours a day. It would be alot more money though and medical insurance so it's definitely not an opportunity that I can easily pass up since we're looking to buy a house soon. Right now I'm not sure how I feel about it but I'm going to apply and leave the rest to God. We'll just have to see what happens.