Instagram Monday! And hopefully a return...

My laptop had a run in with some orange juice about a month ago and I've been trying to get it fixed so blogging had to be set aside for awhile..but hopefully I will get our month of tot school up today!

My little princess is growing so fast! She loves to get up every morning and go straight to the window to show me the "ees" (trees) and the "bi bi" (birds) and all the "vroom vrooms" (cars) passing by. She reminds me every day to take a second to look at all of the beautiful things around me.
We've also been spending most of the summer with my mom since she's on summer break. Paisley has had a blast at her Nyanya's house swimming and playing with the dogs and basically getting spoiled left and right ;)

Post Baby Clothes Shopping

Today was 94°...the past week has been in the high 90's to 100°. So I had to go shopping for some new shorts-not a favorite of mine. I've always been a big girl. The last year of high school I really started packing on the pounds and it kept going until 2 summers after I graduated. I ended up at a size 18 and weighed 190 lbs. That summer I started working outside,running around with kids all day,watching what I ate and walking 3 miles at least twice a week. I dropped 50 lbs by the end of the summer and I was down to a size 11. I did great for a good 2 years, staying between 11-13,then I got pregnant. I stayed at a 13 until I was about 5 months and then I gained 14 lbs and had to start wearing 15's. At about 6 months I switched to maternity jeans to be more comfortable but I was watching my weight and staying where the doctor told me I needed to be. By the end of my pregnancy I had gained 34 lbs and weighed 209 lbs. After Paisley was born I instantly lost 19 lbs and was down to about 190. Now I know that I will drop the weight soon, I just barely got the ok to exercise a week ago and I gained the right weight for my beautiful daughter..But I still feel like I'm back to being the fat girl with the low self esteem and the fear of shopping for clothes. So today was hard for me. I was overly critical of every pair of shorts I tried on and cried alot and ended up leaving every store empty handed. This is going to be a long journey. It took me a long time to finally be comfortable in my body and now that I'm back to where I started out, I just feel like a failure.