It's 5 o clock in the morning...

Welcome back pregnancy insomnia. After a week of dealing with a sick one year old who woke up 5 times a night, all I wanted was sleep. Apparently my body decided otherwise though. :(
So instead I'll update on our little gummy bear! We went to the doctor on Thursday and we got to hear the heartbeat. It was a solid 160 and the dr said it sounded like baby was already doing somersaults! I can't wait to start feeling those wonderful little kicks and somersaults. <3
I also recently started a new "diet". It's more that we were sick of the way we felt and decided to try to weed out the bad stuff. So for breakfast I have a bagel with low fat cream cheese and a cheese stick, lunch is 2 sandwiches, and dinner is a small mason jar salad. We are also BIG coke drinkers so we are trying to cut down on that and opt for sweet tea some days and more water throughout the day. And it's working! Even though I'm 13 weeks pregnant I lost 4 pounds this month! I feel a little better than I have in awhile and I feel a little better about my body. I'm so excited to keep going from here :)
I also started looking around yesterday for some new learning activities for the princess and I ran into a ton of great blogs about Tot School. So this weekend we will be setting up a little classroom for the princess and starting on some fun, daily learning activities. I'm super excited and hopefully this will keep me more on track with making sure she is actually learning something instead of just cuddling up to watch tv all day ;)
Well I think I'm going to try to get back to sleep. See you guys soon!

Post Baby Clothes Shopping

Today was 94°...the past week has been in the high 90's to 100°. So I had to go shopping for some new shorts-not a favorite of mine. I've always been a big girl. The last year of high school I really started packing on the pounds and it kept going until 2 summers after I graduated. I ended up at a size 18 and weighed 190 lbs. That summer I started working outside,running around with kids all day,watching what I ate and walking 3 miles at least twice a week. I dropped 50 lbs by the end of the summer and I was down to a size 11. I did great for a good 2 years, staying between 11-13,then I got pregnant. I stayed at a 13 until I was about 5 months and then I gained 14 lbs and had to start wearing 15's. At about 6 months I switched to maternity jeans to be more comfortable but I was watching my weight and staying where the doctor told me I needed to be. By the end of my pregnancy I had gained 34 lbs and weighed 209 lbs. After Paisley was born I instantly lost 19 lbs and was down to about 190. Now I know that I will drop the weight soon, I just barely got the ok to exercise a week ago and I gained the right weight for my beautiful daughter..But I still feel like I'm back to being the fat girl with the low self esteem and the fear of shopping for clothes. So today was hard for me. I was overly critical of every pair of shorts I tried on and cried alot and ended up leaving every store empty handed. This is going to be a long journey. It took me a long time to finally be comfortable in my body and now that I'm back to where I started out, I just feel like a failure.