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Did you guess it?? Yes,we're expecting baby #2 in November!!

The Big 22!

Yesterday was my birthday. 22 years old! I had a wonderful birthday. My sweet fiancé took me to a local bakery to get red velvet brownies, then we grilled some burgers and hot dogs and spent the day eating and playing video games with my sister,her boyfriend, Ben, and my sweet baby girl. them I went to work at our church nursery and and went to get FroYo with my whole family. It was a great low key birthday. But what really made it perfect was that Ben took the day off for my birthday. I was talking to one of the women at our church and she said to Ben, "I think every man should take off for his wife's birthday" and I definitely agree. As a new mom I feel like I kinda gave up birthdays. At least the old birthday where I would get tons of presents and the entire day was about me. My daughters birthday is 13 days before mine so we didn't have much left to spend on presents for me and I just wanted a nice relaxing day with my family. But I felt so very special because Ben chose to stop and spend the day with me. It may not always be practical or even possible for him to but I enjoyed the day.

"I can't keep up and I can't back down..."

This is my daughter..Gorgeous right? 10 months old Sunday and every bit mommy's shadow. I LOVE my daughter. She is smart,sweet,beautiful, and the light of my life. I adore her. But I've been staying home with her for 10 months and I'm slightly restless. You see, my daughter is clingy. She hates to be put down unless I'm right beside her, she sleeps in our bed-and only if I'm holding onto her, she doesn't even like going to her daddy if she wakes up at night...It's been rough. I'm getting a little worn down lately, it's hard never having alone time. It causes tension with my guy, a house that's a mess, and a frazzled me. I don't ever want to feel like that about my daughter...she is honestly the very best thing that's ever happened to me. So what do I do? I'm worried about trying to sleep train her for her crib because it's looking like it's going to be a huge crying adventure..and I hate to see my baby cry. I don't know how to make her more independent but still secure that mommy loves her and isn't leaving.

2 Months!!

Today my sweet little angel turned 2 months old! I can't believe she is already 2 months,it seems like I was still waddling around 9 months pregnant just the other day. She is already such a huge part of our lives though. I can't remember what our lives were like before her. I don't remember what it's like to go to bed when I want and sleep all night,or to carry a purse instead of a diaper bag. I can't remember getting dressed without making sure I can nurse in that outfit or a time when I wasn't constantly worried about my baby girl. In the last 2 months I have been pooped on,peed on,thrown up on,drooled on,spit up on,scratched,had my hair pulled and had blisters on my boobs from breastfeeding. I wouldn't trade it for the world though. I am the happiest I have ever been. And even though Ben and I have less alone time, I think we are closer than ever. I adore my little family.