I had a really hard time adjusting to being a stay at home mom. It wasn't what I imagined it would be and it's not easy to stay home all the time without any adult interaction. The last few months have been more of a challenge than I thought they would be and I had gotten slightly depressed. Now this isn't to say that I don't love being home with my daughter. I do. It's the best decision I've ever made and I wouldn't give it up for anything!
So saying that,I have this friend who I've been friends with for over 10 years. She was my best friend for years and I love her dearly. She is amazing. However, she sees life a lot differently than I do now. In high school we were both bitter, believing love was a lie,people can't change, questioning the existence of God...but I changed. I met Ben and I saw how much a person can change when they do it for love, and I realized that love is out there. The first time I heard my sweet baby girls heart beat, well how can you doubt the existence of God after that? I can't. My friend has changed too..she found a wonderful man who treats her like a queen. But she has still remained bitter about life. In my depressed state, reading her Facebook posts were making me even more depressed so I simply deleted her. I wanted to be surrounded by positivity. How else could I be happy? Now I heard from her mom that she's getting married in a few months. I reached out to her after getting an invite from her mom to tell her how happy I am for her. I just wanted her to know that I want the best for her no matter what. Now my invite has been rescinded and I feel lost. How do you lose a best friend over Facebook?
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