No Sleep Til Brooklyn!!!!

...or something like that. Last night was one of the hardest nights i have had so far. I was already tired because I couldn't sleep the night before and then we had to get up early to head out of town. Paisley normally goes to sleep at 12 and she'll wake up 2-3 times a night and then get up at 10:30 a.m. Her schedule never really differs too much. However, last night she decided she wanted to party! I ended up staying up with her until 2 a.m. trying to get her to sleep. I let Ben sleep because he has to work all day and I didn't want him to be tired. So it was me and Paisley, and every time she would fall asleep she would realize it and start screaming! It was not fun. Finally got her to stay asleep and then she woke up around 4 or 5 screaming bloody murder. I was so asleep I was dreaming while trying to feed her and I couldn't get her to calm down enough to even eat. So I got a little snappy at Ben asking him to help me and he woke up and got her calmed down a little so she would eat. And now here we are at 7:30 a.m. doing the same thing. Obviously my daughter hates sleep. She fights it every chance she gets so it looks like mommy will be sporting the sleep deprived look for awhile :( Maybe we should start looking at a better bedtime routine...

6 weeks 6 days 6 hours and 16 minutes

That's how old my baby girl is as I sit down to right this. This time 7 weeks ago I had just gotten settles into the hospital,got my IV out in and started my induction. I was terrified and excited, I had no idea what I was going to do with this sweet baby. The next day when I was handed my 5 lbs 5 oz angel I had no idea why I was trusted with such a tiny,perfect person. I didn't know how I would be able to take care of her once I got home. Almost 7 weeks later I don't know what I did before her. Waking up every morning to her sweet little cooing and those big blue eyes is more than I could ever have dreamed of. The past 7 weeks have been incredible. I've been able to spend every minute with her just relaxing and bonding. On Wednesday I start work again though. I don't know how I'm going to do it. My job is just a part time 5 hours a day job but I can't imagine leaving her for 5 hours. Every time I think of it I tear up. I wish I was able to be a stay at home mom but right now it just isn't possible. I'm not sure how my first week back is going to go but at least Paisley will stay with her daddy most of the time and then my mom is going to watch her the last 2 hours of the day. I'm pretty excited that they will get the chance to bond with her as well.Her daddy is so good with her :) I love seeing them together and I know he is thrilled to be able to have some one on one daddy/daughter bonding time. I am incredibly blessed to have my amazing family!